Absent Minded
prayer to mankind
so you only get one life
and ive made a mess out of mine
where do i go from here
and how do i kiss all my scars better?
too paranoid to love
too hurt to trust
too ashamed to give in
never coming back
so have fun in the eternity
of the boredom
of oh yeah its no fun without
wrecking innocence
and throwing him away
i only have one life
to make my statements
and to live life like the poem i want it to be
but every one fights me
poisonts the metaphorical prayer
i wish you to discover i am
while you all become etaeranal
to the deathwish i become in your subconcious heaven
of how and why of the crime scene
of the reason i chose not to participate to be there
life really is fair
dont feel sorry for me
i dont think you have it in you anyway
i dont think you could fathom understanding anyone elses reality but your own
and i need something more than this world can offer me
im tired of being alone
like the last living soul
lost without hope
missing and srtolen from his true home
so when you all live forever
and you remember this relaity and whose missing and why
know i made my choice to die forever
just once
so i wouldnt have to suffer with all your poisoned prayers
and endless fights and never live my dreams
just have thems tolen
and be left in the spotlight of seeing someone else live them
as i cry the tears of why can thtat be me
they are my dreams
i dont want everlasting life
i choose to die
i choose to never come back
to never see this place again
to bnever hear another curse
to witness another crime
another controversy
that to me is ignorance and bliss and peace
call me selfish
but then im just like you
and in your heaven where youre left figuring everything out
in tears you probablyu cant cry
because youre lost and confused
numb and been through everything again and again
i saw it i seen it
and just wasnt interested
and wasnt scared of you to go off into the darkness of the unknown
and never come back
not to participate intoi an ongoing nightmare that never ends
i dont believe in suicide
i dont believe in war or murder
i guess im ahead of my time
i dont believe in malpractice or terrorism
but it works
and keeps people jumping through fiery hoops
and standing in line
where they hurry up to wait
but dear father
dear preacher
dont send me off to no heaven or hell
dont curse me to roam this world as a ghost in your mind
or a war opf the heavens
or whatever
let me die
let me die
thats all i want
i never want to come back
to feel such pain
to be hurt every day differently
to never end it
to never win this sick twisted game
i never wanted this
but this life is all i have
so while you are all gods of eternity you have the choice
feed into my dream
or feed into my nightmare
the choice is yours
play it like gods and have me as your curse you cry over
or foresee like a god
that i knew more than you
and couldnt bear to live eternity with you
for what you are addicted of ddoing to me
one day you will learn
one day you will pay
one day iwill be noticed taught and forgotten
ona spotlight i will be granted upon a deathbed
i wish upon
and that leaves you all in denial of how you fed me blasphemous selfrighteous curses hidden behind blessings you protect that give you power
that truly is evil in its purest form
or is it really the other way around
i care for you no more
youve broken your favorite toy
your best friend has another friend
and is soon to move away
youre being replaced
and you will learn the hard way
youdont know what you got till its gone
so vote me in instead of out
cave into my dreams insteadof making my nightmare bigger
maybe youre right
i should pay it forward and be meaner ruder unhappier
as i understand i dont deserve to be happy in a world full of problems
youve never been through i go through one by one to one day tell you the new age story of the grapes of wrath
so paint me up
cut my hair
brush my yellowed teeth
invite me out to supper
wipe my tears
tell me im worth something instead of the nothing i always hear
too late i'll know youre lieing
vote me in instead of out
cave into my dreams and help me throw my nightmare away
im only living once
and this is your crimescene of how you will remember me in your eternity
have anice forever
amen
and ive made a mess out of mine
where do i go from here
and how do i kiss all my scars better?
too paranoid to love
too hurt to trust
too ashamed to give in
never coming back
so have fun in the eternity
of the boredom
of oh yeah its no fun without
wrecking innocence
and throwing him away
i only have one life
to make my statements
and to live life like the poem i want it to be
but every one fights me
poisonts the metaphorical prayer
i wish you to discover i am
while you all become etaeranal
to the deathwish i become in your subconcious heaven
of how and why of the crime scene
of the reason i chose not to participate to be there
life really is fair
dont feel sorry for me
i dont think you have it in you anyway
i dont think you could fathom understanding anyone elses reality but your own
and i need something more than this world can offer me
im tired of being alone
like the last living soul
lost without hope
missing and srtolen from his true home
so when you all live forever
and you remember this relaity and whose missing and why
know i made my choice to die forever
just once
so i wouldnt have to suffer with all your poisoned prayers
and endless fights and never live my dreams
just have thems tolen
and be left in the spotlight of seeing someone else live them
as i cry the tears of why can thtat be me
they are my dreams
i dont want everlasting life
i choose to die
i choose to never come back
to never see this place again
to bnever hear another curse
to witness another crime
another controversy
that to me is ignorance and bliss and peace
call me selfish
but then im just like you
and in your heaven where youre left figuring everything out
in tears you probablyu cant cry
because youre lost and confused
numb and been through everything again and again
i saw it i seen it
and just wasnt interested
and wasnt scared of you to go off into the darkness of the unknown
and never come back
not to participate intoi an ongoing nightmare that never ends
i dont believe in suicide
i dont believe in war or murder
i guess im ahead of my time
i dont believe in malpractice or terrorism
but it works
and keeps people jumping through fiery hoops
and standing in line
where they hurry up to wait
but dear father
dear preacher
dont send me off to no heaven or hell
dont curse me to roam this world as a ghost in your mind
or a war opf the heavens
or whatever
let me die
let me die
thats all i want
i never want to come back
to feel such pain
to be hurt every day differently
to never end it
to never win this sick twisted game
i never wanted this
but this life is all i have
so while you are all gods of eternity you have the choice
feed into my dream
or feed into my nightmare
the choice is yours
play it like gods and have me as your curse you cry over
or foresee like a god
that i knew more than you
and couldnt bear to live eternity with you
for what you are addicted of ddoing to me
one day you will learn
one day you will pay
one day iwill be noticed taught and forgotten
ona spotlight i will be granted upon a deathbed
i wish upon
and that leaves you all in denial of how you fed me blasphemous selfrighteous curses hidden behind blessings you protect that give you power
that truly is evil in its purest form
or is it really the other way around
i care for you no more
youve broken your favorite toy
your best friend has another friend
and is soon to move away
youre being replaced
and you will learn the hard way
youdont know what you got till its gone
so vote me in instead of out
cave into my dreams insteadof making my nightmare bigger
maybe youre right
i should pay it forward and be meaner ruder unhappier
as i understand i dont deserve to be happy in a world full of problems
youve never been through i go through one by one to one day tell you the new age story of the grapes of wrath
so paint me up
cut my hair
brush my yellowed teeth
invite me out to supper
wipe my tears
tell me im worth something instead of the nothing i always hear
too late i'll know youre lieing
vote me in instead of out
cave into my dreams and help me throw my nightmare away
im only living once
and this is your crimescene of how you will remember me in your eternity
have anice forever
amen
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