Absent Minded
Q&A
What was your first turn on?
the fact that it was wrong
or the thought that it would hurt
hurt for years to come....
Where did you hide your agenda?
Inside of me or inside of you?
What was your first denial?
That you liked it?
or that it made you smile?
Was it because i was young?
or because you thought I seemed so eager to learn?
was it because you find it fun?
or because i should have too?
Was it curiousity or control?
Was it love or self centered pitiful soul?
How did i lead you on?
or did i just blindly follow?
What was the secret and did you need the key
am i lieing now?
or were you lieing to me?
Ohnestly glad it wasnt an adult
ohnestly surrendering to the truths
to set you all free
ohnestly it must have been me
innocent and playfull
wish we could do it over and over nad over
like it plays out in my head
but only i break down in tears in this reality
and wish for some form of death
What was your second turn on?
the thought of growing up
or my blessed bright eyes
that would cry no more
when iwas on my knees
was it love? another lie?
a wonderfull imagination?
Did you?Did you?Did you?
Did i want it?Did I want it because you wanted me to?
Are you better now?
Are you still sick?
Are you going to be okay?
What was my turn on?
Was it that you were a big man?
or the thought that one day
i would help you or kill you
if i couldn't?
What was my turn on?
wa sit He-man or some other role model
I am lieing now or I just don't remember
Did I?
Did I?
Did I?
Do you deserve it?
Do I deserve it?
The death you might need you asked me to deliver you to
if you did it again
but now im stuck with my scars and this mess of something
and holes of lost souls
and medicine
and emptiness
my question is
are you ready to die?
Im dead inside and have been since I was five or seven
the fact that it was wrong
or the thought that it would hurt
hurt for years to come....
Where did you hide your agenda?
Inside of me or inside of you?
What was your first denial?
That you liked it?
or that it made you smile?
Was it because i was young?
or because you thought I seemed so eager to learn?
was it because you find it fun?
or because i should have too?
Was it curiousity or control?
Was it love or self centered pitiful soul?
How did i lead you on?
or did i just blindly follow?
What was the secret and did you need the key
am i lieing now?
or were you lieing to me?
Ohnestly glad it wasnt an adult
ohnestly surrendering to the truths
to set you all free
ohnestly it must have been me
innocent and playfull
wish we could do it over and over nad over
like it plays out in my head
but only i break down in tears in this reality
and wish for some form of death
What was your second turn on?
the thought of growing up
or my blessed bright eyes
that would cry no more
when iwas on my knees
was it love? another lie?
a wonderfull imagination?
Did you?Did you?Did you?
Did i want it?Did I want it because you wanted me to?
Are you better now?
Are you still sick?
Are you going to be okay?
What was my turn on?
Was it that you were a big man?
or the thought that one day
i would help you or kill you
if i couldn't?
What was my turn on?
wa sit He-man or some other role model
I am lieing now or I just don't remember
Did I?
Did I?
Did I?
Do you deserve it?
Do I deserve it?
The death you might need you asked me to deliver you to
if you did it again
but now im stuck with my scars and this mess of something
and holes of lost souls
and medicine
and emptiness
my question is
are you ready to die?
Im dead inside and have been since I was five or seven
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