Celina Adrian

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"pipe dream"

I wish
I could be more about money
than love
I wish I could be so shallow
as to care more about what fills my pockets
than what fills my heart
or in this case, most recently, what has emptied it
I wish that I could be so tough
when love comes to stab at me
so that when love's blade
rips into my heart
or cuts into every vein in my body
I wouldn't feel it as deeply or as dramatically
as it just wounded me yesterday
and the year before that and those years before that
I wish that I could love
just a little less hard
and feel a lil more worthy
the next time around
if there is one