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So Ok, What Do I Do Now?


Problems, problems again and again!
My head is battered it's driving me insane!
I get over a problem, and all is ok,
Then something happens and all's not ok!
So I have this angina, yeah, I know!
Another problem arrives and it won't go!
It's my arthritis, I tell myself all the time!
Any excuse to deny it, yeah, it's mine!

So the attacks got worse, and scare me so!
And during a check-up I should tell her, I know!
But I never did, and went home again!
And once again the pain hits and drives me insane!
It's not my arthritis, I know that's true!
And I know it's my angina and don't know what to do!
Cos it's scary for me, I've too many problems to bear,
And now another one hits, it's not at all fair!!!

My angina had altered, and it didn't worry me;
Until the attacks got closer and pain was all I could see!
The last few months have been a living hell,
But I chose to ignore it, and decided not to tell!
But then they got worse, and scared me so…
And I knew there's a problem, the doctor I'd go!
But the doctor was concerned, she reiterated again!
Over and over, till it drove me almost insane!

I didn't want to hear it; I wanted it to be gone!
Oh woe is me and this lack of health of no fun!
So the doctor said she'd send a letter, and I would wait,
I thought it would be months, now I'm in a state!
At 3pm this day, 5 days after I first went;
I got a phone call, and I wasn't sure what it meant!
So I guess I got a scare, not expecting this call,
I nearly fell over and everything went small!

Thought I'd pass out with the fear in me,
But I didn't, it wasn't meant to be!
And the heart man wants to see me in 3 days time!
A total of 8 days, oh I'm not feeling fine!          
So yeah, it's scared me, I thought it would be a long time,
Before they'd want to see me, and now I'm not feeling fine!
Because even for me, I know this is way too fast for sure!
They're not wasting time; cos they know the score!

So now I am at a loss, oh what can I do now?
I think I need to toughen up again, but I'm not sure how!
Because I jest you not, the fight in me is a bit weak,
I need support; its strength and salvation I seek!
But I have my rock, right there in my Rich,
He will support me and help me, cos life is a bltch!
I've always floundered alone in this health fight of mine,
But now I have him to help me, and make everything fine!

His gentleness calms me; he doesn't get in a flurry,
It's just as well he's in my life and with me!
You can only fight the fight alone, for so long,
Cos it beats you down in the end, I can't always be strong!
And now, yeah, I'm floundering, what the hell do I do?
But leave it to God once again and hope He comes through!
For this night I am scared, oh very much so…
I need God and my Rich with me as down this road I go!

And pray to my God, and ask of Him please…
Don't let this trial bring me to my knees…
Because God help me this night, I'm in a fog so dense!
I hate this health krap, it doesn't make sense!!
I'm here again, asking what I've done in my life;
To bring upon my shoulders a life of strife!
So ok, what do I do now? How do I get through this trial?
And will God help me once again, to overcome this last mile?

 







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