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My eyes fill with painful tears. It's been so long, almost four years. You still don't love me though you say, but late at night while I lay I remember the way things use to be. Your laugh and smile the way you said I love you to me. You say I have changed and it drove you away when it has been you who went completely astray. You forgot why you fell in love with me. In the beginning it was my drive that you first began to see. You knew I was better then how I was living. I thought my life was ending, you showed me it was just the beginning. I began to hunger and want everything life had to offer to me. You think that means I am ungrateful and you cannot see that I keep wanting more, more then the life I once had. I can not, no I will not lie down and let life pass me by I must live better not just get by I am the women you taught me to be. I strive to be better can't you see? I don't settle or give in. I am always going to get better and that's why I always win.