I remember showing up here
drunk,high...a total wreck;
shortly after losing
the one thing I had left.
I remember the look on your face
and how scared you must've been;
to know that your daughter
had hit rock bottom again.
I remember all of the tears
I was holding back
because I was too scared
to let you see the courage I lacked.
I remember feeling motionless-
and lacking emotion too
and I was so f@#$ing scared
to even talk to you...
I remember wanting to tell you everything
but unsure of where to start;
and on top of nearly dying;
I had a huge hole in my heart.
And I remember wanting to say
"I'm addicted to everything I touch!
but you must understand why;
for this world was so cruel to me....
I just wanted to die"
