They call it the big C for short,
It seems cancer is a word unsaid;
Why? Because people think if you have it,
You will soon end up dead!
So negative a word isn't it; cancer!
Something everyone's so scared to say,
Well I am not afraid to say the word at all,
That's not a problem for me, no way!
But ‘having' it is the biggy isn't it!
The fear that you may have that ‘thing' inside!
And that's the fear within me this day;
A fear from which I can't run, or hide!
I have tried to keep it a secret you know!
And not tell anyone who I love; who's in my life!
Because all that will do is terrify them too!
And cause their hearts much strife!
It's bad enough the 6 people who know!
Because the pain in them, I see…
And I wish with all my heart and soul,
This cancer so feared will not be!
So I brace myself for this coming week;
Like I say; they can take any part of me!
And as long as it isn't cancer I have!
I really don't care what else it will be!
Cos anything barr that is a blessing!
Well, at least to me it is anyway!
And I really don't mind what they do to me!
As long as I see many a many more day!
I can live without the kidneys or bladder,
Give me a bag, that aint no sweat!
Cos rather I would have to have all that!
Than the other ‘thing' called cancer I get!!
So in my head I am trying to sort it out,
In my heart, I'm trying to be as strong as can be!
And face the road ahead with strength!
And pray for the life that I want to see!
And hope against hope they are wrong!
hope it turns out to be nothing much at all!
Because I say it now, and I say it strong!
I am not ready for my final call!!!