I guess I was searching for something;
Only I didn't know what I was looking for;
So I plodded along in the walk of life,
And entered every new door!
And every door that I went through;
Brought about another change in my life;
I accepted my lot, and never complained,
And I deal with every trial, and strife!
I was walking alone through my life,
No-one to help me; had I;
And when my back was against the wall,
It was only to God that I'd cry.
I never showed my tears to anyone;
For what good will that do?
Nothing, all it would cause is heartache,
So I depended on me to get through!
I was searching for something, I know not what;
But something was missing in my life,
I felt all alone in the dark of night;
But was determined to get through the strife!
You see I have never had anyone to lean on;
More, I was the rock for many in my life;
But there was never anyone there for me,
No-one to tell of my fears, my strife!
And as I walked alone in the hours of life,
I wasn't looking for anything at all,
I had a life, and as precious as it is,
I dealt with every one of God's call…
I couldn't see the wood for the trees;
For I was lost in the fog so deep and thick,
Floundering on the sands of time;
Pretending all was well when I was sick!
Hiding the fact I was in such pain,
Forever pretending everything was ok,
Not caring for the outcome of moaning,
That I wasn't too well with my health each day!
So I went through life very happily,
For I am a survivor, and a fighter true!
Always ‘my' rock, always ‘my' call!
And I needed no-one to help me through!
So I skipped through life as we do,
Thankful for every new day that I see!
And to this day, that stands the same!
For I am as happy with me as I can be!
…Then something special happened…
And now I don't have to pretend any more,
And I don't have to cry all alone,
For the love of my life is ever at my side;
Right here in our little dream home…