In the back of my mind,
Holding this perfect image of you,
Yes…you were my object of perfection and a singular force to be reckon with,
Somehow you changed on me,
Lost in absolute translation and surprisingly I accepted.
Forgetting my own feelings and aimlessly pushing them aside.
Wanting to be pleasing in your eyes alone.
They did not matter and all there was is you.
Shaking myself out of this lost dream world I woke up and decided
Not today.
Anger…Resentment…slowly burning and building up inside me,
Ready to explode at any given moment.
A cloud full of disgust and anguish growing inside my mind,
Screaming loud and clear yet no one can hear except me.
I had completely lost myself in you and living only for you.
My bad, my mistake…my fault I let that happen.
Not today.
The love we shared was surreal and destructible.
A pure lustful dream.
Too much room for error and mistakes once and again.
Your simple personification was all a lie.
Your definition of your character was untrue.
Corrupt you were and will always be…and yes all too convincing.
Regret…jealousy…misunderstanding all at the same time.
For all this I hate you.
False love we had and I did not realize it.
Broken promises lead to a broken heart.
A broken heart that you could not mend with all the medicine in the world.
From the beginning it was all about you and not about me.
Your treatment was so sweetly covered-coated…that you really got me.
Wounded me deeply and forever changed.
The hurt you caused is unforgivable.
Indeed you need to pay and pay dearly you will.
Intimidating you were….too smart for your own damn good.
Your false pretenses so amazingly hidden and well planned.
Not today…I see you for who you really are.
Mischievous smiles of deceit,
Everytime I see that image in my mind,
Becoming physically sick,
For making me feel this way… I hope you burn for it.
Not today because I am through with you.