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There is not good atmosphere


There is not good atmosphere at home
And this is all my fault
I'm not normal anymore
Yes I know I shouldn't shout at them
Yes I know I should be more consequent
Yes I know I shouldn't let them this or that
But, I am as I am
Of course I can blame my self
With your help
You tell me how egoist I am, but
I can't tell you that I don't love you
And I live in my dream again
And I think only about this
How to spend the night with him
Yes I'm terrible, I'm awful
You said that I think of my self just
You said that all you want is to live
In peace, but what is that mean?
I'm sorry I'm not the perfect woman for you
I prepared my self to live with another man
That's why I can't live so calmly
And I have some problems with my self
I'm sorry I don't think about you
You said that you are not important
You just need time for work now
And peace
So I think I can give you this
I want to go, I think
But what about the kids?
You think I'm not a good mother
Because I scream sometimes at them
Because they don't listen to me, but
You are not with them all the time
And even if calmer you are than I
They need me more
So if I'll go I know
That I'll take them with me
And don't think that
I think only about my self

Or maybe I'm really mad?
No one should ever be with me?
The best way is stay alone
At home
I shouldn't went out to meet you
At all
I'm cause nothing but trouble now
I can't make you happy anymore
I'm not a woman who can live only for the children
I'm one of these who can lives for the man
But you are not this one
I'm sorry I decided to marry you
I shouldn't because
I still love another man

But you, my Love, you then..
You must think that I'm crazy woman
I think I'm getting be not strong enough
To be with you, my Love
I could try to be with you only
When I'm more self confident
No I started to be so weak again
I don't have the force to fight
I don't have the right
To go to you with my luggage so poor.


Written by Anna Cellmer







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