Absent Minded

Jesus turned me Bipolar

I was down in the dumps
wanted to die
thought i was worthless
hated the moon and the stars
and often thought of suicide by why bother messing that up
theyd only scre me over
and wish me up to heaven and id have eternal life after all

so i begged the gods through my poisoned prayers where
i toold them i hated them for their plans
the plan to make mankind suffer endlessly and needlessly
so some highe rpower can have his but kissed

and then i got on my knees
and let jesus in and i felt funny
a bit different
was i saved?
iwas different truly happy
a new medication?
like a high across the nations
my first dose
on bended knee
and i thought to myself this feeling and life isnt soo bad
look at the birds
the trees the beauty
the wonder of everything
id sure like to come back

if only there was a cup of everlasting life to druin from i would have

was it saytan's trick
to fool me into my suffering forever?
leave me down and out
feeling alone and a nobody
an insignificant thing
until this was a part of me
then everybody would respect and love me in their cult
and my problems would all go away
they would all be solved

so you see
ever since i praised jesus
and got down on my knee
i thought otm yself being amn of science
what i experience here was a bipolar episode
and i should go see a psychiatrist
i told her my story
and she agreed
and now im on antipsychotic liittle blue mood stabilizers
to keep me on track
wow if jesus can do that
turn people bipolar
im afraid more now than i ever was

from tear and dire staright and self pity low
to the high of i want everlasting life and light

Jesus made me manic bipolar
and my psychiatrist just prevents me from having another episode
so idont get too happy or depressed
i try not to let him in again as i hav erejectee dhim now
and look to do something to undo what he di dto me and a nation of men

was it a trick of the devil
a holy son turning people mentally ill with highs and lows
from the depths of pain another one rises
to have it all
and falls back dow to let jesus in again
and it works their high aas a kite
forgot their problems for ignorance is bliss
is what the devil would say
and since your ealready on your knees in surrender
this is how its going to be
my way

jesus turned me manic bipolar
i dont want him comin ground
and im afraid of those evil cultic churche sof insanity
givin ghteir children their first doses of insanity at such young ages

its a miracle they tell them
but my psychiatrist feeds me pills
and tell sme im manic bipolar for feeling that way

so go ahead and enter everlasting life without me
someone has to go last anyway
i'll volunteer
and if i don't make it
i'll be hoping for some words of wether it was everything i feared
if its another universe revolving artound jesus and god
im not going to show up
I'd rather die
70-80 years of one life of this insane horror story
of bipolar people in religions that dont get along is enough if u ask me
so when u pas that cup of everlasting life around and there is enough for everyone
ill be last in line thinkind what if i am to drink

or ill get down on my knee ionvite jesus in and see if i go manic bipolar again
and if i do im throwing that water away
to die forever
unless god himself resurrects me
but lik ehe cares
hes donenothing really in a world where satan seems to care soo much
jesus here i am on my knees again
come cleanse me
thank you i see the light an dnow i know in heaven ther eis only peace and love
probably revolving around a selfish god i have to keep sucking up to
for the way i lived my life all wrong

jesus made me bipolar
My god
tricked by the devil
and no ones caught on


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