Absent Minded
Now That I'm Goth
To understand a visible minority
one must first become one
my make up washes off
and i can take off my black clothes and blend in
but then i am still gay
an invisible minority
so here i am
black eyeliner
half happy face half sad
chains down each leg
shaved head
trying to understand
looking at your dirty looks
as i cry for the world
and as you say judge ye lest ye want to be judged
you judge me
The floor wlakers at the shopping centres follow me around
the gas stations kick me out
as they say I'm in disguise even though they can see my face
unlike those women who cover their entire bodies except for their eyes
the cops follow me
and security is always curious what im up to
It's sad really
and it hurts
and most peoiple tell me i do it for attention
but believe me when i tell you
i just want to understand
when i dress in black to show you
the pieces of my broken heart
my shattered soul reflecting society
and you look at me
and refuse to open the door for me
its fine you let your true colors show
I wouldn't recommend it for anyone who is weak
anyone who is suicidal or sad
I wouldn't recommend it as a self expression to anyone
but for those who just want to understand
the sideways glances
and the stares
the constant surveillance and mistrust
the suspicion and judgement and cruelty of others for no reason
go goth if you must
just remember
when you wash off that make up and those others cant
when those others are accepted by their own
even i am still rejected by the majority for being gay
i just swallowed a bigger dose of being thrown away
i wish i could sort out the psychology of confusion and misunderstanding
somehow and become world reknown so we could all escpae this predjudice hell someday
Just like how at wars the thousands of soldiers should point their guns
at the leaders on all sides like an act of mutiny on their own backyard
telling those saying kill or be killed to go see a shrink
and the doctors can lock them away before we all go to another stupid war
over predjudice hate and money
and the men found at the top giving the orders to kill or be killed
to become powerless instead of
turning innocent men into shellshocked serial killers
it would be no more
why dont we have this evolved planetary group mentality and get together to say politics isnt working
and all politics does is set us up againa nd again to go to global preplanned massacres we call war
I may not be Jesus
and even though im dressed in goth and you judge me
In my black make up lipstick and eyeliner
In my black clothes and ters for the world of my broken heart and shattered soul
I could lead you to peace
and hopefully one day understand why our religious beliefs leave us fartehr apart instead of closer together
and maybe somewherein the realm of this thinking i will find the key
no one should have to be raised in to the thinking your hated for what you are
and who you are
for being born
a beautifull human being
politics isnt working
its killing more people then it helps
they say ignorance is bliss but i learned soo much at school
no matter what clothes i wore
but going gothic was truly something else
and now i cry for jesus
and how for three lives he tried to do the right thing and was brutally murdered
only to one day have everyone ascend those stairs and be like way to go loser
i did everything right in on elife
and you messed it all up
as we blackmail him to start the war of the worlds
and he weeps in heaven and the story continues
as we seemingly never learn until we are destroyed\
so man needs a better plan
cry for jesus to get into heaven?
and if u cant then realise how selfish you truly are
if u cant cry for aman who wept for a world worse off than ours
and u dont weep for our world
like i do
and you just eat work and sleep and dont try to do the right thing but still have free passage to the holy land
how evil
and the gift of prophecy the churches tell meis bribery from the devil
how many prophets in that book the bible including jesus had prophecies
and were they not bribeds by the devil
so whats the rest of the story?
Two powerfull beings had agreed to argue and threw us in the middle
of the confusion to win votes
and then choose sides and see who we would fight for
according to what plan we werent there to witness
let it die
one must first become one
my make up washes off
and i can take off my black clothes and blend in
but then i am still gay
an invisible minority
so here i am
black eyeliner
half happy face half sad
chains down each leg
shaved head
trying to understand
looking at your dirty looks
as i cry for the world
and as you say judge ye lest ye want to be judged
you judge me
The floor wlakers at the shopping centres follow me around
the gas stations kick me out
as they say I'm in disguise even though they can see my face
unlike those women who cover their entire bodies except for their eyes
the cops follow me
and security is always curious what im up to
It's sad really
and it hurts
and most peoiple tell me i do it for attention
but believe me when i tell you
i just want to understand
when i dress in black to show you
the pieces of my broken heart
my shattered soul reflecting society
and you look at me
and refuse to open the door for me
its fine you let your true colors show
I wouldn't recommend it for anyone who is weak
anyone who is suicidal or sad
I wouldn't recommend it as a self expression to anyone
but for those who just want to understand
the sideways glances
and the stares
the constant surveillance and mistrust
the suspicion and judgement and cruelty of others for no reason
go goth if you must
just remember
when you wash off that make up and those others cant
when those others are accepted by their own
even i am still rejected by the majority for being gay
i just swallowed a bigger dose of being thrown away
i wish i could sort out the psychology of confusion and misunderstanding
somehow and become world reknown so we could all escpae this predjudice hell someday
Just like how at wars the thousands of soldiers should point their guns
at the leaders on all sides like an act of mutiny on their own backyard
telling those saying kill or be killed to go see a shrink
and the doctors can lock them away before we all go to another stupid war
over predjudice hate and money
and the men found at the top giving the orders to kill or be killed
to become powerless instead of
turning innocent men into shellshocked serial killers
it would be no more
why dont we have this evolved planetary group mentality and get together to say politics isnt working
and all politics does is set us up againa nd again to go to global preplanned massacres we call war
I may not be Jesus
and even though im dressed in goth and you judge me
In my black make up lipstick and eyeliner
In my black clothes and ters for the world of my broken heart and shattered soul
I could lead you to peace
and hopefully one day understand why our religious beliefs leave us fartehr apart instead of closer together
and maybe somewherein the realm of this thinking i will find the key
no one should have to be raised in to the thinking your hated for what you are
and who you are
for being born
a beautifull human being
politics isnt working
its killing more people then it helps
they say ignorance is bliss but i learned soo much at school
no matter what clothes i wore
but going gothic was truly something else
and now i cry for jesus
and how for three lives he tried to do the right thing and was brutally murdered
only to one day have everyone ascend those stairs and be like way to go loser
i did everything right in on elife
and you messed it all up
as we blackmail him to start the war of the worlds
and he weeps in heaven and the story continues
as we seemingly never learn until we are destroyed\
so man needs a better plan
cry for jesus to get into heaven?
and if u cant then realise how selfish you truly are
if u cant cry for aman who wept for a world worse off than ours
and u dont weep for our world
like i do
and you just eat work and sleep and dont try to do the right thing but still have free passage to the holy land
how evil
and the gift of prophecy the churches tell meis bribery from the devil
how many prophets in that book the bible including jesus had prophecies
and were they not bribeds by the devil
so whats the rest of the story?
Two powerfull beings had agreed to argue and threw us in the middle
of the confusion to win votes
and then choose sides and see who we would fight for
according to what plan we werent there to witness
let it die
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Now That I`m Goth
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