So okay, I swore, I was mad and was angry,
And I yelled at the top of my voice!
I also cried an ocean of tears in 24 hours!
Then I had to decide what would be my choice.
So I got up this morning after a worrying night,
When things were rolling around my brain!
Thinking of this, of that and the other…
Almost driving me totally insane!
So like I say, I got out of my bed,
And looked to the sun light skies…
Pondered on what I was looking at,
And finally, dried my eyes!
Today I was asked by a doctor,
How I can be so focused and strong;
So I told her about my tears and anger,
And my thoughts of how I was done so wrong!
She told me she was amazed by me,
Cos my attitude is one of strength!
And the way I deal with the bad in my life,
I sort it, and deal with it at length.
She asked me why I didn't sue a hospital,
For the negligence they caused for me,
And I told her, I said to her simply so;
‘Because negativity just isn't for me!'
And she seemed really shocked at that!
Smiled at me, and told me true;
‘I wish I could take you around to my patients,
And tell them they should be more like you!'
You see, she told me that her patients,
Really don't know how lucky they are!
And she categorically stated to me,
Their ‘oh-woe-is-me' attitude isn't on a par!
Then she said to me as she smiled,
‘If I took you on my rounds with me!
I'd show them just what's really bad!
And parade you proudly for all to see!'
So I smiled at her, as I do…
And laughed a lot, like only I can!
And giggled a lot, as I said to her;
‘Doc, I'm your number one fan!'
But I say this in all seriousness now;
That no matter my trials or pain!
I will work it out; eke it out, deal with it;
And start my life all over again!
So I did!
And as for getting mad at God;
You know, blaming Him once again!
I thought I'd better apologise,
And be humble for my shame.
So I humble myself to Him as I should,
And pray that He understands;
And simply accept, that no matter what,
My fate is within His hands.