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I often tell myself to beleive that
lightening never strikes twice.

Never again will I subject myself to be a murdered soul

dead/enticed by

those born unto the sign of disloyalty

masked deception behind bright eyes and smiles.

Telling soothing stories to make the ears

orgasmic/spasmic soul caught up in the haunting words

of a future not intended.

Dependent upon hope that a change will come.

What a fool I appear to be and often feel the same

Shame upon my conscience mind and

lost among the pitied souls buried in darkness

I realize what I have become

A victim of my desires, A pawn in an everlasting game

of spin the bottle.

Intentions are admirable

and dutifully honoring those with hardened hearts

and divided minds.

I release .

I can see the darkness approaching,

yet resolved to turn a blind eye

focusing on personal deeds and good intentions

knowing down-played and forgotten are all these things.

Swept away is my heart a man

A good man, with lots to give

An enduring admiration for those who suffocate my heart

But without, I cannot live.

So I fight in agony knowing the end result.

and again I feel the knife coming down

And again -for allowing it- It's my fault

Will they ever see the light?

The love that stands before them?

playing mind games to divide the emotions with words

though they are truly distorted.

So, What is to become will be what will be.

A man, A good man.

This I shall always be.

But.

Do you know?

©Copyright Benjamin A. Casey 2007








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