We'd already accepted time wasn't on our side,
But we decided to push that to the back of our mind,
Wanted to make you comfy and make sure you were safe,
Doing besdie vigils so you wouldnt be alone whilst awake.
Then when I sat beside you I wanted to cry,
But you stirred and awoke so I wiped my eyes,
It was your strict order you din't want the tears,
You put on a brave face to hide our fears.
You looked so weak lay in your bed,
I sat right beside you feeling fear and dread,
What would happen when you were gone?
How would I find the courage and strength to live on.
It was all in those moments when childhood was gone,
Watching you become weak when you once were strong,
The bond we shared all those years then grew,
And it really hit home how much I'd miss you.
I held your hand and you gripped it tight,
Quickly the day slipped into night,
My mum came home and came up to see,
She crept inside and sliently hugged me.
I was shocked at how fast time had gone on,
My mum told me I was so strong,
She asked me if I was strong enough to cope with this,
So through my breaking heart I silently whispered yes.
On that day you died I wondered round in a daze,
Couldn't really cry I was just in a haze,
On the day of your funeral I was coping o.k,
Then heard the horse and carriage and my eyes gave way.
The time for you came round so fast,
Sitting at your bedside was a thing of the past,
On the day your clock came to a hault,
My heart stopped loving and life was at fault.
I earned to be with you I wanted also to die,
Just to stop this hurt and to not cry,
But slowly over the months I pulled myself together,
And realised in my heart we'd be one forever.