A New Woman - So hard to adapt

I have this friend
One is a billion who like me no toss about no damn trend
Perfect friend so understanding
Well perfect is not perfect, but just a really great short word to say that a friend is one in a billion
My new friends are too hard to adapt too
As one night the toughest yet got through
I have this sound soother that plays the ocean through
Helps enlighten and revive me and release bad thoughts to good ones
Makes me think of God and his creation
The the Holy Book is recited by a famous voice created by God
So beautiful
Not on loud just really low
Yet this friend knew about my situation and how i could not sleep
The depression the anxiety and everything, she was watching Tv could she not mute it and wait until i fall to sleep
I forgive her and God
Except things are so hard to forget
I am a religious person people say you should not be depressed except i can't just empty what is inside me
Yes i do pray and read the holy book and thank God and everything i can do to remember Him in beautiful ways except i can't help the way i feel
I need my sound soother don't you get it
I cannot sleep without it as it plays the Holy book
This girl should have respected God and his creation
Respected me as a friend
This is why i was upset
I cannot help comparing in my mind except my other friend would never do this
We believe different things yet she would still let me listen to the Holy Book and the rest like the ocean she would listen to even though it made her sea sick
The birds she found kind of Annoying, but she still respected me as a friend
It hurts when the people who are in our belief do this yet the other people respect us even more and i trully love that they do this and maybe they should consider councelling ones who do not respect friendship as friendship for a lifetime.