Amazing feelings are hard to find,
When so much is going on in your mind.
Days go by and nothing changes,
Heart still low and still bad feelings.
Knowing what i have to do the steps i have to take,
To change so many things there is a lot at stake.
I want to prove to everyone that i have got the strength,
Just cos' i do and often will seem stressed and sometimes tense.
It really isn't easy the thing i have to do,
But i know i have the power to see this all the way through.
People always judge me when they haven't got a clue,
If they were in my shoes for just a day they'd understand the things i do.
I don't want sympathy or give any kind of excuse,
But the only people who know what i am feeling is those who have also suffered from abuse.
I just want to find a way do deal with things in a better way,
Find a way of coping and getting through my life day by day.
Without the feelings of anger and hate that i feel inside so much,
I want to prove to everyone that i am really tough.
I wont be beaten by this i will see this to the end.
I may not always be perfect but my heart will never mend.
Too much has gone on in my life for me to ever be free,
But i ain't going to give up now i got too much responsibilities.
I will face this head on and fight hard when things get rough,
I will not cry and feel sorry for myself i will not give up.
My words are written in such a way that comes from deep inside of me,
They come from a place that helps to keep me going and Will one day set me free.
When you read my writes please let me know your views,
Do you think that i can do this or do you think that i will lose?.