I woke up at 4:00 am Tuesday's morning
Well I never went to sleep
I got dress at 6:00am Tuesday morning
Took me to the beach to watch the sunrise
Had a lot risen on my mind
If you know me, you know that beach is the most peaceful place on earth to me
I parked my car and first took a walk
Thank the lord for my blessings
Talked to myself about my bothers
Felt nice hearing me talk to me
Self, I haven't listen to you in a while
honestly I haven't been listening to any thing in a long while
I've left myself in a place I can not find
The good girl I talk about, is no where to be found
The kind hearted woman I once were is out of sight
12:57 am Wednesday's morning
I sit at the edge of my bed, with a glass of my favorite wine
High as hell with the mooches
I'm not a smoker or a drinker
but I'm going through somethings, I have no clue of
The way I'm feeling right now is not a way out of my problems
but it feels way to good to not feel
12:57 am Wednesday's morning
About five hours ago i was visiting the best thing I'll ever have(Lust)
30 minutes later I received a call that made me feel better
I got high around 11:oo, started drinking about 12:35am
It's now 1:18am
So if I don't make any sense, you'll understand
I just feel these things, I need to be let out
12:57am Wednesday's morning
I'm happy and its from within
I feel better because my lord makes me better
1:24 am Wednesday's morning
I think my high and the wine is kicking in