Dear God, I know we aren't supposed to ask for us,
But here I am on this lonely night,
In absolute total agony, so much so…
I am in need of your assistance to my plight.
I don't ask for much Dear God as you know,
And never usually ask for myself at all,
But with a pain out of sight, on this hard night,
I thought I'd ask and give you a call!
Some people tell me I'm stupid to believe,
And say how can I put my faith in you,
When all I have is pain after pain,
And operations, operations galore too!
I mean to say, I've had my share,
Of heartache and pain over many a plight,
And even then, I have never lost my faith,
For I always have that focus in sight!
But Dear God, and I'm scared to ask you this,
Cos each time in the past that I've done,
Instead of cutting me some slack, Dear God,
My health's spiralled down and it isn't much fun!
And I said that I'd never ask for me again,
But here I am on this saddened night,
Asking, no begging for a little help,
And ease this pain that's so out of sight!
Sometimes I get so mad at you,
And show my anger in a night that seems so long,
Wondering if this suffering's for a reason,
And wonder if this is punishment for a wrong?
Because I don't know why I have these things,
I mean to say, is it really just a test?
Or have I been so very evil that I'm punished,
Because at times I don't feel blessed.
But then I contradict myself Dear God,
For I believe I am so very blessed by you,
Because you let me live, didn't let me die,
No matter the health that I have been through.
So I guess I've answered my own question,
I'm blessed, no way am I cursed!
But Dear God, look into my heart…
And see just how much I hurt!
And please let me have some ease this night,
For this night is feeling like the longest time,
I am living between my pain medications!
For I am far from feeling fine!
A little ease, a little less pain please,
Just to help me through this dark plight,
Oh Dear God, please help me, please,
Please carry me through this harsh night.