Absent Minded
do you prefer the dark or the light( child or lover of a god?)
In every passionate kiss slips a piece of my divine soul
and that piece of my soul stays there
until there is another passionate kiss by that person
I have given soo much love
it feels i have no soul left to give
as these pieces of divine soul roam this world and time
for a place to find destiny
a man to bear my seed
a woman to bear my egg
and a place for me to be born and comfortable
So why do i prefer your darkness over the light father?
i can answer you that enigma
there in your deepest darkest secrets
i find solitude
privacy from you
an omnicient being who knows everything
and i am sure something soo pure
would not get off on some of my innocen pleasures at such ayoung age
so i hide in your darkness of the force of light and dark
where you will not let me go
until i realise what part of you i am
and then i stop hiding
isnt that right mother
but when i come from the darkness
and you discover who i am
in the light i am always offered a free will
a choice to go back to the dark
where i am held ever so tightly
forced to see all your dark desires
all your sick secrets
all your hate
and vile thoughts
tortured by what you fear you could become
and what i am not
where i must be your pubescent adolescent
so i can have privacy because some things you hide from even yourself
and that is where i enjoy myself the most
that is where i have built a world all of my own
to you it is an evil place
to me it is home
many find this confusing
but one day again i will leave your darkness behind
and my soul of kisses will be reborn into my light
until it has to run into the darkness for privacy
and have me never ever know
and the things i will find there to be reborn
in this cycle of abuse
of light and dark dwelling
is a cycle i have yet to defeat
as it is an unequal measure
where frustartions and confusions insecurities and rage roam
many dreams are also born
and the fact i can only experiene thos in the light
where you see it all
is another nightmare
so back i am in the dark
pieces of my soul
are sliding from heart to heart by lips
kiss by kiss
until they find a man to carry my seed
and a woman to carry my egg
and share a love to nurture me to what i desire to be
I always wanted a god i could look up to
even be with in sexual ways
i fear being alone
and the thought you are my heavenly father
i delve into this darkness of yours early to see
is this truth or reality
could it be?
the true children of god, this is what you do
in the darkness you hold them
in the light you offer them the choice to go back
if i am not your child wouldnt it be the other way around
and as your lover you hold me in the light
and keep me from the darkness?
oh father such secrets of the house i have made of your darkness could i tell....
such wonders of your light are my nightmares and keep you rlovers coming back to the darkness
and they know the truth all too well
and that piece of my soul stays there
until there is another passionate kiss by that person
I have given soo much love
it feels i have no soul left to give
as these pieces of divine soul roam this world and time
for a place to find destiny
a man to bear my seed
a woman to bear my egg
and a place for me to be born and comfortable
So why do i prefer your darkness over the light father?
i can answer you that enigma
there in your deepest darkest secrets
i find solitude
privacy from you
an omnicient being who knows everything
and i am sure something soo pure
would not get off on some of my innocen pleasures at such ayoung age
so i hide in your darkness of the force of light and dark
where you will not let me go
until i realise what part of you i am
and then i stop hiding
isnt that right mother
but when i come from the darkness
and you discover who i am
in the light i am always offered a free will
a choice to go back to the dark
where i am held ever so tightly
forced to see all your dark desires
all your sick secrets
all your hate
and vile thoughts
tortured by what you fear you could become
and what i am not
where i must be your pubescent adolescent
so i can have privacy because some things you hide from even yourself
and that is where i enjoy myself the most
that is where i have built a world all of my own
to you it is an evil place
to me it is home
many find this confusing
but one day again i will leave your darkness behind
and my soul of kisses will be reborn into my light
until it has to run into the darkness for privacy
and have me never ever know
and the things i will find there to be reborn
in this cycle of abuse
of light and dark dwelling
is a cycle i have yet to defeat
as it is an unequal measure
where frustartions and confusions insecurities and rage roam
many dreams are also born
and the fact i can only experiene thos in the light
where you see it all
is another nightmare
so back i am in the dark
pieces of my soul
are sliding from heart to heart by lips
kiss by kiss
until they find a man to carry my seed
and a woman to carry my egg
and share a love to nurture me to what i desire to be
I always wanted a god i could look up to
even be with in sexual ways
i fear being alone
and the thought you are my heavenly father
i delve into this darkness of yours early to see
is this truth or reality
could it be?
the true children of god, this is what you do
in the darkness you hold them
in the light you offer them the choice to go back
if i am not your child wouldnt it be the other way around
and as your lover you hold me in the light
and keep me from the darkness?
oh father such secrets of the house i have made of your darkness could i tell....
such wonders of your light are my nightmares and keep you rlovers coming back to the darkness
and they know the truth all too well
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do you prefer the dark or the light( child or lover of a god?)
do you prefer the dark or the light( child or lover of a god?)
