This was a while ago
I still remember
How i felt
Brother
How you felt
I could never understand yours
I have lost people
Friends of the family
Members of the family
Also friends
Except this hit me hard
As so young
As you were
Now five years down the line
I still see his mother
I feel so bad for her
I see his face in her face
It is like him
Her heart is sweet like his was
He was so kind and funny
As our niece was dead fond of him
So much
He'd make her laugh so much
He'd come by and sit with me on the bus
It wasn't always
As we got on at different sides.
It was mostly when the two weeks i went to work experience.
How sweet...
I cried for him
You see his family
You cannot help, but cry
Cry and cry.
His eldest sister who helped her mother to look after him...
Cried so hard on my shoulder i left to go home after the pain had settled...
I put my top to go into the machine coz i couldn't stand the pain of her bitter tears it hurt my heart so bad
I then ate my food
It tasted so salty
The food had no salt
I realized it was from her painful tears
My brother you're now coping well.
Allah will take whomever He pleases
Whenever He pleases
We have to except
Face the facts
This boy
He has no sins
Remember he died before breaking puberty
So He will be one of the seventy thousand people who go through the judgement day without punishment or reckoning
I remember how bad it hurt me
I couldn't even focus at college
The pain was so Severe
Like when my father had died
I knew i'd never see my dad forever
I knew your friend and he was a little friend of mine too
We were not enemies
Coz he was loyal and sweet, i could have a little chat and a good old laugh
I knew he was never coming back
That hit hard in my heart like a brick falling from the sky again and again
Repeatedly in my heart and stomach so how you felt i don't even come close
We will pray Heaven for him
Hoping it is
Even if we say he is sinless
We still pray for him
Always fear and hope
Take care my brother
This is painful bro
You will get through this
We all will
I find it hard now
Except
Hey
The angel of death could come behind us any second
This is what life is about and we need to accept it is not forever
And the world is going even quicker than we imagine
So their is one thing we can do to save ourselves and people we have lost
Is to pray, pray and pray and follow the ways of the wise prophets...