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Buried Deepdeep within my heart resides a place only for my sons filled with memories i saved up for those rainy days when id drag them out and reminisce of a time past the full pain of my heart lays buried deep within my soul parents sometimes make decisions they feel is the best only to have them come back to haunt them later in life the good we envisioned never came to pass for anyone the full pain of my heart lays buried deep within my soul i missed the part of their lives that made them become men when tragedy struck my oldest son i could no longer sit back i could feel their mixed feelings but the love never does die the full pain of my heart lays buried deep within my soul both had felt my desertion as a betrayal would they understand pain went deep forgiveness might not occur could i regain their trust taking the chance to keep them safe i knew their father would be best the full pain of my heart lays buried deep within my soul something was amiss within my brain i knew not what it was i felt the threat to them as i remembered my own childhood days the chain had to be broken only i could do that but at what cost the full pain of my heart lays buried deep within my soul events occurred to make the break it shattered their world and mine not the best way but at the time the only way within my confused mind i was at a full blown episode logic took the back seat bi polar at the helm the full pain of my heart lays buried deep within my soul i seemed to go from the frying pan straight into the fire no hesitation never seeming to understand how to put the fire out in the first place my world was always upside down no one ever understood not even me the full pain of my heart lays buried deep within my soul now i know so do they but the wanting is still on hold they do they dont they arent sure about letting me in they arent sure of their feelings either i do understand i will give them the time and space they need i do love them the full pain of my heart lays buried deep within my soul Vote for this poem
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