A New Woman - A horrible life like i did with you

Of course i am not happy
I am married to somebody so selfish
You only come back when i do a lovely makeover to my bedroom

A makeover to undo the depression you gave me
From leaving me with no money and for no reason
What did i ever do
You never explained
So there is no reason

You want to force your way back into my heart
How when you broke it for no reason
You killed me almost
With this horrible unwritten dialogue i didn't see ever coming my way

I thought it was forever
I confused my feelings with the truth
You have the performance of a very talented and gifted actor
You're a beautiful liar

Then you come after i spend almost all of my disability living allowance and income support on my room
The laminate
The curtains
The giant cupboards
Tv on wall
The special ultimate storage bed
I didn't like how you jumped on the bed
Its not nice
How dare i do any of these stunts on any of your stuff or your families
You go baloony
A good thing i have the performance of a writer from my lord
So i can stop getting so angry
It did cost alot of money
So of course it would make anybody upset
I cried
Because i didn't like it
I wouldn't be happy or comfortable with it
You won't get me a new one will you?
NO I KNOW IT YOU WILL NOT

I still cannot believe you wouldn't even take me on a picnic
I thought we were supposed to be mending the marriage that was ENDING...
I try and try
All you do is pretend that you love me
You said nothing is better than chewing gat in the park
Ok so we chat a little, i said best not Saturday, as i told the truth, i really don't want to sit around you while you smoke
Or chew gat, talking to wall paper would be more interesting as it is
Talking to you is less interesting than talking to wall paper
Its so hard communicating, but i aint complaining
You said you'd hang me forever
You cannot hold me hostage forever you know
I belong to God and myself and my mother
Who are you...?
I then hear you say You'd rather chew Gat at home, so why lie that you want to spend time with me if you don't
One day you tell us to cook and you eat at your brothers...
Then when we don't you come out of the blue when we eat the remaining food of yesterday
You then complain that there is no food...
So why complain when there is no reason to complain
I just want peace from you
I have had it
You've been pushing it to the limit, limit...
Until you win it
You got the indefinate
Its up to you to get the red
I told you i'd help you and you never let me help you
So if you won't help yourself nobody else will...
So its goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that we both knew...
I am tired of holding on to a horrible life like i did with you.