Why did it have to be this way
I thought it was great
If you had to say something i made it clear
Did i not?
I said tell me everything and anything
You never wanted me to know a thing
I was always the last to know
I didn't want to hold back and let it go
I had to say
I didn't want to be the last to know
I wanted to know what was up with you
I wanted to be your advisor and friend
I didn't want to be an ordinary wife
I wanted to be special
You wanted something more, but you never gave me the chance
You said it was a childish thing
Half the things i wanted were not childish
They were very important issues in marriages
Now you ask...
What happened
If you ever read my poems you will know
I am a true writer
I write my draining heart before it eats away my flesh or goes terminal
Spreads around like a murderous terminator killing away my flesh and bones
Before i am eat away i write my heart out
As each letter saves me...
I just want to say
You never encouraged me, or felt interested when i wrote over thousands about you
My friend signed the guestbook on behalf of you, you said you did and i never thought you seek so low
I forgave me friend, but i also forgive you for Gods sake
I love God
I know He has given me so much
I feel He will forgive me if i can no longer forfill the role as your wife
You know what you done to me
I have choked enough
I will only live on in peace without you
I am a very sick woman i need no more of this