Laying upon my bed
I try to close my eyes i am awake instead
Crawling to the computor and before i know it, its AM...
Sleeping now until PM.
Mom is doing most of the things and i try not to let her do it all.
I feel like i had a big fall.
I can't seem to cope watching everything in my life and i can't seem to stall.
All problems going on at once, caught up in circles of confusion and depression is nothing new.
What do i do...
How'd i get through.
I turn to God and the Holy book touched by angel, touched by a Prophet and by all who believe.
I slowly recite my heart and then i write my way and suddenly i feel i can leave...
One problem behind me.
God is helping thee.
I thank Him so much.
For every part of heart i feel he does touch.
Touches it so mercifully.
I cry throughly.
Its with happiness.
If i cry with sadness...
God brings me back to joyfullness.
If i fall he catches me.
I am waiting for Him i just want to see...
I want to Meet God i want to be worthy of Heaven.
Learning the Holy book by heart so i can take with me into this beautiful place the souls of 11.
