I am a strong swimmer
You left me overloaded
With so much emotion
So much pain and agony
Too many problems and thoughts
Too many lies than i can comfortably handle
The plate was far too full
I am a strong swimmer i know i am gonna fall
I'll be Ok
I can swim to safety
I'll be Ok
You pushing me out and i was here to stay
Then you pushed me far to fast
Could hold on no longer
So i fall again like always
This time i am struggling against the tides
Life just full of lies
I cannot controll my body as i keep thinking
What will happen my fear is making me more overloaded than ever before
I have to keep telling myself I'll be Ok
Even though i am going deeper and deeper away
I'll still be Ok
It is the end swimming against oceans and rivers i am not used to
I am drowning, falling, falling going, going...
Down, down and down until suddenly...
BANG
I've hit rockbottom
How do i get out of this mess
Cannot breathe at all, wishing to have some gills it just wouldn't work
I keep trying to breathe through the hurt in my nostrils
I may as well forget i am so over loaded i cannot swim to safety
Its like i am trapped forever
I will not let you do this to me
Anyways do you know what
I'd rather drown and go to Heaven...
God forgive you for my suffering.