Life is so boring
My brain
Spinning in circles
Seizuring my conciousness
To a halt
Then the back
Crackling and popping
Like Corn
Then the foot
Swelling
Like a rised cake
Or puffed up laminate
Paranoia confusion around the curiousity
That lays beneath my heart
Then the depression and meltdowns
The breakdowns and asthma
A breath so harsh
Coughing like mad, gasping for air
Breathing fast and hard, vividly reaching for an inhaler
A safe spot
I cannot sweat for a living
Its boring
Its only useful for one good reason
Thanks to God i can still earn a decent living while i am recovering my illness
I am so grateful
Just need a job to keep me preoccupied
So i forget the other pains
Just so hard when i am disabled living on an allowance
Life is boring
God knows i am grateful
I am just bored
Its so boring
To wait for the money
Get a card
Do some typing and...
Whalla
The money slides out on mini wheels
Warm and crisp
Then out comes the recipt
The mini statement too