All these feelings going up and down.
Shivers up my spine, rushes in my back like tickles.
Flushes on my cheeks now going red.
Sweating in places i never sweated before.
Stammering, lost for words, can't think right.
Getting it wrong with stutters.
Too much running through my head at once as i'm allover the place.
Trapped butterflies cycloning from my tummy tickling my neck and spine so bad.
My whole body inescapable of my nerves.
Oh God will they ever break down as i vomit away hoping they'd been broken down and gone down the toilet.
Except no, they're trapped a blackhole of nerves.
I can hardly breathe.
My goosebumps having goosebumps, my head light and rushed.
My confidance and self-esteem did they ever exist in the first place.
God will this ever end, as i beg you and i am glad i am begging its bringing us closer.
My eyes blackened with sleepless nights.
Worried, shocked, frightened as i quiver with fear, worried about what to say and do.
What will happen, now later and what's after?
God will this ever end i seem to wonder, I know it will all end, all thanks to God as i leave all trust in Him.
As its only Him who knows my fortune and my life from A-Z.
Its all in his hands and i trust Him with whatever happened.
I did trust him and it all turned out for the best.
