Toxic love
The love was only something
I never expected
I can't believe i fell for
All this
Well i know better now
I was inexperienced and untouched
In fact I had never kissed anyone before you
All i got was toxins throughout my whole body
That i could never detox
It wasn't only a danger to me
To the rest of the world
I wasn't myself
At least my friends understood
My family cared coz their is only one of me
No matter how hard i tried
It was worthless
Its no wonder it didn't last
Then you ask me a silly question
If I'm honest?
Of course i am
The love faded when you left me
Helpless, depressed, needing you more than ever
Searching for answers, begged for some money
A family friend saving me, mommy only had benefits
Taxes and bills to pay you have no idea
Crying hopelessly from the cracks already in my heart
That eventually broke my heart
I've had heart breaks of friendships and rejection
You were the first person who truly made me feel
I was worth nothing
When God made me a worthy human being
So leave me alone with the smart remarks
Of course i don't want you back
Stop asking me if i love you
Stop saying those three words
Quit playing games with my broken heart
I'm sorry i don't and never will again
I get stressed thinking of offering a chance
There will always be a barrier between us
That you created
There will always be that barrier
We can never mend
Don't wanna keep separating
Returning
I don't want this back and forth
If you truly loved me you'd do what i want just to make me happy
I don't ask for much and i am certainly not selfish or ungrateful
Like i saw in you
I am sorry our love was and never will be reciprocal
Never do things for me
If i did for you
It would be thrown
Back in my face
Like you just don't care
I could be selfish its easier to go astray
Although I an do without the guilt trips
Its hard to forget
You know why i'm leaving and its too late you blew it five times
You might never find anyone who'd give you five chances after discovering what you're like
You're not in Yemen anymore
You need to learn to adjust yourself to different lives if you want to travel
You especially need to just learn to respect women Full stop
