My Daddy passed away that day
When the building he was in took his breath away
It was smoke inhalation you see
On a Christmas morning bright and early
They thought he was away visiting
So they never bothered looking for him
It was a few days later under the rubble
His lifeless body they discovered
In the beginning I was a Daddy's girl
He was the center of my whole world
But as the years went by he'd soon become
A distant memory to most everyone
You see the devil had used him as a tool
His actions and ways would try to fool you
In younger years I missed him so bad
It was hard growing up without a Dad
Then in my forties he reappeared
He was diagnosed with cancer that year
As a mature woman I set out to mend
In hopes to have a relationship with him
Sadly to say that was short lived
For not long after he moved again
I found myself in a game of hide and seek with him
I wrestled with hurt emotions deep within
It was on the Monday after Christmas the knock came
No more hide and seek would remain
It was an officer that spoke words of dispair
Saying; " There has been a fire Ma'am " and
"We believe it was your daddy found there"
It's so odd that on Christmas day I felt so weak
I felt anxious for it to end and family to leave
It was a rerun of when my Mama went away
It seemed a part of me was void that day
To describe would be a life force disconnection
Along with a major jolt of devastation
With both my parents gone the void felt so huge
None could comprehend unless they went thru it too
My Daddy had hurt me to say the least
I needed to forgive and to let him know
So with monies from gifts I bought a headstone
Along with his name I had "Honor Thy Father" written upon
For many years I felt an emptiness
Until that void one day was filled by Jesus
I think back now of all those wasted years
Of joy denied by myself and the many tears
I know that God had His hand on my life
Even through all the pain and strife
Today I write and sing praises unto Him
For He is my Father always present within
Oh how I long to help others know
Don't carry the burden on your own
It is ONLY Jesus that connects the life force
He is the giver of joy,peace and eternal life resource
I've penned this prose in hopes to reach
A hurting soul with these words to teach
That I come today to give a testimony
Jesus can fill that void with His life and glory
I now am the daughter of the most high King
He promised to never leave nor forsake me
The pain I suffered many do not know
Yet it was in the valley I was pruned to grow
For my Father in heaven has promoted me
Now I'm called into His ministry
If you'd asked me years ago where I would be
Not in my wildest dreams would I see
For at that time His love was a mystery
Wondering through life and suffering
All along I was a part of His divine plan
To share the gospel and be a pen in His hand
So never think my friend you can't be used
For God has a plan to use you too
He seeks out the broken ones of this world
To be a testimony of His divine works
If the life you're living seems hard to trod
Surely there is a purpose working for God
For all things work for the good to him
That love God and are the called according
to His purpose for them
By ;Pastor Linda Begley
Through all the pain I am a better woman today! Hallelujah!!
"Happy Birthday to my earthly Daddy with love and forgiveness"
For May 20, 2008