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THE ANCHOR I'VE BECOME


Every little thing i heard
I put it out my other ear
They said the time
Will come for you

Like death
It comes for us all
But this Human being
She got to them all

I thought i got her under my wing
As a restful angel
But now the devil
Churning her greed
To say it isn't
But i aint so thick
Coz i got brains
Though they shake and my memory aint so good

But God gave me so much wisdom and sense
Now it comes to show they were right
I prooved them wrong and for you
I love you so much, but why do you need to be this way
For explaining you never do too well


You say for this
Then i see another
You say the most silliest things
Your best interests at my heart i never do see
Its all about finance

You pressured me into the most agonizing thing ever in my life
I forgave you
I really did forgive you
You're always up my sleeve
I can't keep you from nothing
Even if i did and God forgive me
You'd weave through somehow

The greed of a 50 50 and more on top of it all to see the saw leaning hard downwards
Now leading to the bottom of the ocean where i am gill free
So much hurt in my heart
I am unsure if its suicide coz i know its religiously wrong
So i hope it isn't

You ignore my cries and say i done nothing
Its all thrown back into my face
My tears i cry coz i been so good to you
But may God forgive you
As i weep so hard the angels feel my pain

Its mine it belongs to me
You're so sick and it makes me cry harder because prayer is off duty
May God forgive you
All the trouble you cause you never even see
Everyone seems to know, but me how to deal with this
Coz i can't believe how evil you've become
Then the best interest at heart you'd say
To cut it off
All bought up again and again
Breaking my already healed heart for more lectures and more agony


If i run away its the only way
Coz believe me
I have to
Its the only way to stop me feeling like i'm turned into an anchor
Gill free with no more air to breathe
When i take a breath
The problem already sailed away never goes away with you

I WILL FORGIVE YOU
But i feel you won't
So i may go to Hell
If you don't forgive me
Enjoy Heaven

Lots of love

You need not know who this mysterious person is
Coz i'll never tell
I'll never reveal coz i wouldn't want the sin







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