Beautiful Disaster
Who I am
I often find myself
Wishing that I wasn't
Who I've become.
Completely broken
With feelings
Numb.
I keep trying to
Build myself back up
To who I used to be
But I know
That girl is no longer
With in me.
I know I'm not
What they expected
Me to be
And it seems
I will never get them
To see the real me.
I've changed
From the little girl
They used to know
Jeans and a T-shirt
Instead of cute outfits
With the matching bow
Do I apologize
For finding
My own way
Or are they the ones
That should have
Something to say
I wish I felt
That who I was
Was enough for them
But instead I feel
As if I have to change
Who I am
I try so hard
To make them understand
The person inside
But it seems as if
They will never know
No matter how I tried.
The world tells me
I will never get anywhere
If I don't have the looks
But my heart tells me
I won't be anything
Unless I have the books
The world says
Big isn't beautiful
And skinny is in
But I know I would rather
Be compassionate
Then be thin
And I just wish
That I could make them
Understand and see
That I might not be
Perfect to the world
But I'm perfect for me
Wishing that I wasn't
Who I've become.
Completely broken
With feelings
Numb.
I keep trying to
Build myself back up
To who I used to be
But I know
That girl is no longer
With in me.
I know I'm not
What they expected
Me to be
And it seems
I will never get them
To see the real me.
I've changed
From the little girl
They used to know
Jeans and a T-shirt
Instead of cute outfits
With the matching bow
Do I apologize
For finding
My own way
Or are they the ones
That should have
Something to say
I wish I felt
That who I was
Was enough for them
But instead I feel
As if I have to change
Who I am
I try so hard
To make them understand
The person inside
But it seems as if
They will never know
No matter how I tried.
The world tells me
I will never get anywhere
If I don't have the looks
But my heart tells me
I won't be anything
Unless I have the books
The world says
Big isn't beautiful
And skinny is in
But I know I would rather
Be compassionate
Then be thin
And I just wish
That I could make them
Understand and see
That I might not be
Perfect to the world
But I'm perfect for me
