Once fallen
I once was on her pedestal, up high above
Flying high over every other man she ever loved
I once was the perfect man at least in her mind
Now perfection is a thought she leaves far behind
She hasn't giving up on me, thank God for that
But I have fallen from her pedestal, and I can't get back
It was I who step down from there, its all on me
I will never be that high again and I don't deserve to be
I didn't realize how fortunate I was to be so high and clear
To get back on that pedestal it would take a million years
They say you never really know something until you try
It's hard to see any chance with these tears in my eyes
If I could convince myself that there is any shot at all
I might be able to attempt to climb without fear that I will fall
I am not really sure just how fare I have slid
Because I don't even remember all the falling that I did
All I really know is that I want to be back up there
Her pedestal was one to which no other could compare
From down here I can see that nothing I did was worth it
I was once on her pedestal but I once deserved it
Today I sit here gazing skyward feeling really dumb
Staring hopelessly at the comfort zone I have fallen from
Wondering what to do, what is my next move?
If I ever want to be there again, I have a lot to prove
Once fallen from her pedestal there may be no return
Bruised and broken from the fall, now too late to learn