Sitting quietly at the Jazz concert with my head
hung low, in a room filled with people I didn't even know
I begin feeling lost, some-what alone, maybe cause I was the
only one there without a mate, or any friends. I was use
to being by myself, for it's been this
way for quite sometimes.
Being alone had become a part of my daily life style.
every where I went I mostly went alone, but the hardest part
of all was going to bed alone, the not being able to cuddle with
that significant other, or to just share a simple conversation,
bothered me a lot. I wanted so much in my life, but what
I wanted more than anything was someone to love, and for them
to love me as much as I would be loving them.
Finally the show had begun, I could now feel a little less
embarrassed.As the music softly begin to parade through the air
and the lights were turned down low, I could see how the faces in
the room were shining with a pleasant glow. Romance filled the room
leaving my heart to feel envy and jealousy.
Slowly I Rose my head out towards the lovely crowd.
I fell in love with them, for brief moment
I felt a warm smile peeking around the corners of my lips,
the people there were so in love, so it seem from my view.
Couples all wrapped arm in arm spending quality time
together. Even if they had argued all week, that special moment
alone made up for all the times they ignored one another.
and at that moment it seem as nothing else matter in the world,
but the love they felt for one another. Deep down inside, somehow
I wished it was me. but I knew a wish like that for me was far
from the making.
My eyes immediately begin searching around the room. guess I was
looking for any old familiar face..I didn't recognized a soul there, but for some strange
reason I got this feeling another pair of eyes was examing
me. I slightly turned my head very slowly,
and right across the other side of my table were the
most beautiful intriguing pair of sapphires I've ever seen..
Where on earth did he come from!!
I quickly begin looking around to see who was seated next
to me or who was standing behind me, cause surely this
handsome creature could not have been watching me.
and it seem to be no one was seated next to me, neither standing behind me.
Could this mysterious creature be watching me?
Out of all the beautiful women in this room, it was
my eyes he had chosen to position his reflection into.
I tried to look away, but somehow I couldn't. I've always seen
myself as this ugly, over weighted person that no
one would never even glance at, far-more stare at.
But when I saw my reflection in his deep soft brown eyes,
for the first time in my life I felt beautiful. Maybe it was
the way he looked at me, as if I was interesting.
Here I were stuck in a trance
day dreaming about a man I didn't even know, but I just
couldn't help myself. just the intense of his stare had
me flying without wings.
I begin to feel this amazing connection,
for just a second my soul came alive.
I could feel my heart beating , not from fear,
but for love.I wanted so much for him to kiss
me even if it wasn't real. I just wanted this feeling
to last a little while longer. Suddenly a loud
shattering noise took me away from what appeared
to have been the most amazing daydream I've
ever encountered.
I was so busy
day dreaming I didn't even realize that this
mysterious creature had disappeared.I felt like a fool.
He must have thought I was some desperate lonely
over weighted woman. and "honestly" I was.
I made a great deep sigh as in being disappointed
propped my elbows upon the table and collapse
my face in my hands,tears begin to fill
my eyes like a pumped well. As I was in tears
I could feel the present of someone standing over me
Inside my tummy I could feel the butterflies within..I
was to afraid to even look up, so I kept looking down
at the beautiful blue and Grey marbled floor.And
in front of me appeared a pair of shiny black Stacey Adams.
my heart started racing like a horse breaking free.I tried
hard not to let a tear slip from underneath my trembling
hands.Who ever this mysterious person was, he didn't say a word
but into my lap he gently slipped a beautiful single red rose.
At that very moment my heart froze. I couldn't moved, I wanted so much
to see his face, but I was to afraid.
when I finally attempted to look up, he had vanished. I begin searching
the over crowded room quickly, but I had no such luck, I couldn't asked
anyone had they seen him, because the only description I had of
him was his soft brown eyes and his shiny black Stacey Adams...
How was I to find out who this handsome creature were.