It's a shame I never told you but it often crosses my mind
I'm not sure how well I've shown you with these funny ways of mine
Before another day goes past I thought that I would sit
And find a way at last to let you know of it
The it that I refer to, is the admiration, the love, and pride
That I always had for you, but held it all inside
Our lives have not been easy; we come through a storm or two
We've had many situations where we didn't know what to do
When mamma was alive they were not ours to worry about
But once Momma went home, they were yours to figure out
I know it wasn't easy, everything you had to do
Shame I never said it, but always believed in you
You probably needed to hear it long, long before now
I guess I always wanted to tell you, but I just didn't know how
But now that I'm much older, and have tasted life's bitter side
I've learned not to make room on my plate for the foolish pride
You have been my big sister all your life, and for most of it, my mother
I hope there is good feeling of accomplishment when think about your brother
There are times I'm sure, I made you laugh, and times I made you cry
There are things I've done in my life, where you stopped and ask yourself why
“ What in the world is he thinking? I know he knows better than that”
And though you might have disagreed, you always had my back
There was never a time in my life when I thought you didn't care
And never a time when I needed you did I thought you wouldn't be there
Shame I never said it before, it's time I set things straight
I thank God for the opportunity and gift, and forgiveness for being late
I thank you for all patients and confidence in me
I hope you are pleased with your contributions to the man I came to be
Forgive me for not saying things I should have said long ago
You have been nominated to the big sister's hall of fame, I thought that you should know
Thanks for every smile, every tear, and every prayer
I love you very much
For my big sister Jamie Johnson