WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME TO SLEEP? I FEEL LIKE NOW AT 10:28 PM, I SHOULD BE WELL ON MY WAY TO SLEEP, YET MY BODY SAYS NO...
IT'S LIKE I AM PLAYING A TUG OF WAR WITH MY HEART, NO ONE WINS...
MY MIND STARTS TO RACE LIKE IT'S OFF TOO THE RACES, YET I AM NOT MOVING...
CHEMO STARTED THIS PAST MONDAY, WILL LAST 3 MORE MONDAYS IN A ROW, AND AFTER NEXT MONDAY - RADIATION KICKS IN FOR 6 WEEKS MONDAY - FRIDAY...
MANY OF PEOPLE FROM 1 OF THE TALKING CIRCLES I WAS IN, I WAS TOLD THEY HAD ONLY THE SHIRT'S ON THEIR BACK, SO I HELPED THEM OUT, WITHOUT BEING KNOWN, I GAVE THE PEOPLE 3/4 OF MY CLOTHES AWAY...
ALWAYS THINKING OF THOSE LESS FORTUNATE THAN MYSELF, NOT THAT I HAVE GIVEN UP ANY HOPE WITH THE HAND THAT WAS DEALT TOO ME, IT MADE ME FEEL SAD, YET GOOD KNOWING I WAS ABLE TO HELP OUT A BROTHER, OR A SISTER, A FRIEND...
I HAVE ALREADY TOLD MY SISTER WHEN MY TIME IS UP, DO NOT DRESS ME IN A SUIT, A PURPLE SHIRT, TOMMY JEANS OR A SKIRT USED FOR SUN DANCES AND MY PAIR OF GIFTED LEGGINGS WILL WORK...
I WANT TO INCLUDE EVERYONE IN MY VIEWING, HALF IN THE GOD OF MY UNDERSTANDING, AND HALF IN THE GOD MY MOTHER AND 1 OF MY SISTERS, AND THE OTHER PART OF FAMILY BELIEVES IN...
NO CRYING! THAT IS A MUST, AFTER WARDS I WANT PARTY, DJ IS ALREADY IN PLACE...
THIS HAS MADE MY LIFE GET CLOSER WITH MY NIECES, I CAME UP WITH A COOL IDEA, SOMETHING THEY WILL REMEMBER FOR A LONG TIME, TO GO SWIMMING WITH THE DOLPHINS IN FLORIDA...
THE BUCKET LIST NAME WAS CHANGED TO THE LIVING LIST, MORE POSITIVE, MY OTHER NIECE HELPED ME WITH THAT...
IT'S STILL GROWING AND I JUST PRAY, I CAN ACCOMPLISH ALL THAT IS ON THAT LIST, IT ENCOMPASSES, MAUI,CHINA,ITALY,FLORIDA,GEORGIA,CALIFORNIA,IOWA,IDAHO,MONTANA,TO NAME A FEW, THE BIGGEST PROBLEM IS FINDING SOMEONE TO GO WITH ME, I ALWAYS PREFER TO TAKE SOMEONE ALONG, SO THEY CAN HAVE FUN TOO, MUCH LOVE TO YOU ALL, ALOHA...
