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A hundred Pounds of PainI have a hundred pounds of pain in the middle of my chest That's why I can't rest, I sleep two hours a night at best Twenty some odd years of death and pain and it's insane I try so hard to just block it out of my brain But my heart hurts and so it continues to search Seeking some relief, it even lead me to church But I don't know, sometimes it gets so bad that I don't go At times it feels like it wants to release but it won't though It's been so long and life just plays it out like a slow song I feel I have no other choice but to keep rolling on But you know the effects, the ball just gets bigger and bigger And in it's path lay exits like pills, razor, or trigger I should talk it out but I don't know what words to say I'll hold it in until I learn to negotiate But as I do , the weight gets harder to hold I fall asleep just to wake up all sweaty and cold Mamma never said there would be days like this I just wish I could feel the comfort of mamma's kiss But she's gone now, so is big brother and baby sis Only if it was the pain and not them I had to miss Add grandmas , grandpas, uncle and aunts to the list A younger cousin shows life torturous twist But I can't cry, and it gets so hard to live but I can't die Most people find a way to move on so why can't I Like the search for the cure for aids or cancer, I search for the answer To remove hidden pain as my private dancer I have so much love to give, so much life to live I got to know How do I hold this hundred pounds over a bridge and let go J. Moore 08/07/09 Vote for this poem
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