O for those secret moments
where my breath is stolen
from the sweetness
of ultimate felicity...
Savior I'm envious
my soul is starved
remembering my precious yesterdays
when I cried all night
curled tightly as an embryo
safe in THY care.....
I thought it was
a hard time for me then
I even questioned my plight
were You certain
I deserved to hurt?
I argued my rights
I defended my goodness
O,how I resented the times
You allowed of my adversaries
to trample my soul
to tread upon my love...
It made no sense
how those I had given
so much of myself to
had permission
to render me despondent
while You watched silently...
Secretly I dreamed
I was like Joseph
and they would someday come
begging for my love....
So engulfed by my
dark cloud of despair
I was a blind fool!
Ignorant to OUR Love
that was growing
All those dark days of weeping
my best songs were borne
my broken heart had brought YOU nigh
Your presence became my reality...
Those exceedingly precious memories
are the fuel
that feeds this inferno within
burning my entirety
those records I kept
are the reason
I am not afraid of tomorrow anymore
the payment for my pain
was knowing YOU deeper.