~PARTS OF ME~
Fighting Back Cancer
Cancer tares & rips at your body & soul,
And right when you just cant take anymore...here's the next round of chemo.
It burns through my vines as if set on fire,
Or cut hundreds of times with barbed wire.
Friends & family don't know what to say or do to make you feel better,
And the fact is they cant, you've been changed forever.
The doctors say the treatments aren't working,
And now its spreading.
All you can think about at 1st is "Oh God, I'm going to die!"
Then as you go along, you just think of those who will still be alive.
Of all the moments you will miss out on when you're gone,
And just hope those you love, will have the strength to move on.
Its hard to eat, if you eat at all,
Then you look at the scale & watch as your weight continues to fall.
Because every time you manage to eat or drink something,
so after you find yourself over a toilet or bed pan vomiting.
The look on your loved ones faces shows signs of sadness & fear,
Hoping & praying with all their hearts that you'll be here next year.
You can also hear it in their voices when they're near,
Fighting back emotion, plus each & every tear.
You then fight harder to show them you're strong,
But they already knew it, but it was you who needed to realize it all along.
They give you strength with their prayer & love,
Making you fight harder the demon inside, with a firm but gentle shove.
For some like me, the day will come the doc will say,
The treatments are working, the cancer is finally at bay.
That they have stopped it from spreading & its in one specific place,
Then a wave of emotion, & after so long a smile formed on my face.
A month later I see a specialist for my throat,
And he says to me, "I can go a surgery & get it all out!"
I cannot control the tears that falling down,
Or my legs giving out, as I hit the ground.
Another month passes & then the day is here,
As I look in the eyes of my family & friends there is no longer fear.
But instead I see hope & happiness,
That finally there is an end to this.
3 hours later, I awake in my bed.
A pain pounding in my throat, & also my head.
But surrounded by those I love,
The nightmare was over, & I thank the Lord above.
I have fought & beat Cancer! And finally in recovery! In memory of my nightmare ending Nov 29, 2013
SCausey
Fighting Back Cancer
