Your were just a few heart beats away from getting closer to me
And I honestly thought that I was ready
But maybe it is better that it stays this
way
then you being here and much closer to me
Like you have wanted it to be
what seems like an eternity
Yet I cannot promise you tomorrow more or less today
But I honestly and truly wish that it could be that easy
So that everything could have turned out differently
Because I do love you in a very special way
But lately my mind has been
filled
with so much uncertainty
And I just cannot live a life with you in that way
And that's why I was led to write this poem today
Because sometimes things just aren't meant to be
like we want them to be and I just hope and pray
that you will understand what I am trying to say
And hopefully with time you will be able
to forgive me
for bowing out ever so gracefully today
Because the last thing that I ever wanted to do was to hurt you
and that's why I am trying to handle these matters so delicately
Because your thoughts and your feelings are important to me
But to be quite honest with you I have been alone for
far to long; so instead of being with anyone
it is far better for me to choose celibacy over intimacy
Because of the recent events that have been brought my
way with a double tragedy
it has reminded me just how fragile life can truly be
