At YOUR ALTER i fall
so aware of the *ME*
that fights to live
i am a shameful -foolish women
who longs daily
begging desperately to die
yet fights to live
i know YOUR WAYS
are above mine
i know YOUR THOUGHTS
are ALWAYS WISE
and mine
mine are
finite almost non-existent
except
I FIGHT TO KEEP THEM ALIVE
Lord how long have i cried
to live as NOTHING
how long I've known YOUR TRUTH iS....
TO LIVE I MUST DIE
STILL my sinful flesh
fights to live
Lord this is my life that YOU gave me
Lord i desire to let YOU have YOUR WAY
ALWAYS
LORD please give me the strength to DIE!