I see her shine, I sometimes smell her fragrances
Memories of her seem so far, I try so hard to grasp on something, anything, I don't remember her warmth, her voice is slowly fading away in my head, I see her shine from a distance… she is not golden to me..
So many questions unanswered, so many hurts buried inside me, so much tear drops waiting to fall, so much anger and rage inside of me, self control has suddenly disappear, who is this woman causing all this hurts and bitterness for me.. She is not golden to me…
Is it that I don't deserve your love?? Why did you birth me then, promises u made to be there to protect me and guide my movement, you have fail, yes I said it you have fail, you have fail me, shouldn't I get over you already? Why is it hurting me this bad, I wish I can forget about you, I wish I never came from your womb, you are not golden…
Because of you I don't know true love, because of you I have a hard time trusting anyone, its so sad that because I don't have money or things to give you, you cant love or be there for me, like you suppose to, if you know you couldn't love me maybe you should have abort me when you first find out you were pregnant, now I know that been a parents is just a title to some, ill make it without you, I can bet you that, you never cease to amaze me, you are really not golden…