Looking for Me

As my words march 'cross the page

I'm captive in this darkened cage.

I've given all I could give

to find out just how to live.

Invisibility I find

engulfs my life dissolves my mind.

I've found the things I'm going through

are the things you make me do.

The identity I call myself

I've locked away, put on the shelf.

I forgot just how to be

just a stranger's what I see.

Now you've thrown me away

you're a problem is what you say.

You blame me for what you've done

saying I'm the messed up one.

Where is the I, I cannot find

the one I have lost in my mind.

I give up now I am done

I've lost the battle I thought I won.

The things I've done are in the past

I'm finding out those things can't last.

That tomorrow is just a guess

it's only today I can caress.

I sit here with head in hand

finding out I'm not the man.

I thought I'm suppose to be

it's only one you create in me.

So I sit here in mortal rage

stabbing words upon the page.

Finding no one gives a damn

that I've lost just who I am.