what is this feeling?
this panic that sits at the corner of my mind...
waiting , patiently waiting for me to let go?
what is this odd emptiness that exists where my sanity once slept..
twisting, turning , slowly revolving in this quiet too quiet calm?.
where the once over-loud thoughts clamored to be voiced,
silence...
where words once tumbled through my mind waiting to be placed in
random strings of quiet epiphany...
the stillness is deafening...
All at once, I am at a loss for words,
yet overburdened with the need to express a thought or emotion that I cannot seem to comprehend...
what is this sadness that encompasses my every coherent thought,
but yet, i cannot seem to piece together the puzzle to see the completed image?
And why does the fact that pieces are yet missing both enthrall and terrify me?
this silent limbo of calm absent of all chaos.... so horrifying?
A symbiotic mingling of words and emotions striving to hide behind the panic that peeks from the corners of my mind...
..and the fear that once loosed, I myself will disappear?
