living without u is like killing myself slowly
but this time i m going to do it
let me kill myself once and for all
cause i see u least bothered about me
whether i talk or not
whether i am with u or not
it was very very difficult to see u on line
and stop myself talking to you
my hands went straight to the mouse
to click your name
but i stopped myself all the time
then sent you the poems
ull have to bear with me for a few more days
as i am so used to sending you poems
and writing for you
that it will take time to train my heart
for not doing it
i logged off in the night
so that i could not see u on line
then went to sleep on this chair
whole night i was here in front of the com in this cold
i wish i could freeze to death instead of bearing this agony
i am not complaining you about any thing
its just that i am so used to telling you everything
that it will take time to restrict my soul
according to your wishes
just now i woke and saw the time it was 7
you must have left now
drive carefully always
till your wife comes to take care of you
i want you to be safe always
the most worst part of all this was
u never stopped me from going away
good i know my worth now
its going to hurt me tremendously but
i have to face the reality too
ill try my best not to call you and not to message you too
but if i do it by mistake then pardon me
and pray that i too become like you
and take the decisions according to the given time
without repenting for any thing thats lost
and follow your foot steps of no regrets
i dont know how ill spend these holidays
but ill try my best
to be happy go lucky
and hope the New year brings rays of hopes for you and for me too