Golden brown autumn leaves are falling from the trees as the weather is getting colder,
signifying the end of summer and that winter is fast approaching.
I looked up into the skies to see a whirl wind of colours,
dancing to sounds of its own melody as I think of someone dear to me...
I realised that we were miles apart but still under the same blue cotton skies
of the day and the same bright starry skies of the night...
I found little comfort knowing this as I felt a pain in heart as the truth
of this harsh reality came over me...
I realised that you were gone and I am left here by my self,
alone only to be engulfed by memories of the times that we shared together...
With each passing day
I thought that things would become easier but instead
I am torn by emotions of sorrow, regret and joy as I think of things
that I did and didn't do with you.
O how much I missed you...
As I close my eyes, I can picture you in my mind's eye.
You are looking beautiful and wonderful as ever.
I think of your smile, your laughter and the sound
of your voice along with your warm embrace...
Little things that seemed insignificant before are now the things
I hold most dear in my heart as I struggle to try to remember every detail,
trying not to forget but the more I tried to hold
on to those precious moments the more intense the pain of being without you becomes...
Tears flow through my eyes ...all the time ..
U can't afford all this ...but I can ...as I have given you my life....
Instead of remembering, I wanted to now forget everything...
I wanted to run away and hide from my feelings as I am lost without you
but the more I struggled to escape from these emotional bonds
that held me captive to this torment, the more it became clear that
I am crazy about you and that I was in fact so madly and deeply in love with you...
I can give my life for you...
