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@@ My Testiomy For Jesus @@
LET ME BEGIN MY TESTIMOMY,BY SAYING TO YOU IF YOU ARE
HERE TODAY AND STILL THINK THERES IS NO GOD,AND HE IS
NOT REAL,THEN I FEEL SORRY FOR YOU BECAUSE HE BOUGHT
ME FROM THE DARKEST PIT YOU CAN EVER FALL INTO,
NO ONE BUT JESUS SAVED MY SOUL,AND SAVED ME AT A
TIME WHEN MY LIFE WAS EVERY EMPTY,AND MY MARRIAGE WAS
EVEN LESS.
MY FIRST HUSBAND WAS A DRUNKERD,AND STILL IS TODAY
I NEVER KNEW THE MEANING OF A SMILE,I WAS ALWAYS IN
TEARS,EVERY CENT MY HUSBAND WOULD MAKE HE WOULD DRINK
IT ALL,I NEVER HAD ANY FOOD FOR MY 2 BOYS ECCEPT FOR
MY DAD,I LIVED LIKE THAT TIL I COULD NOT LIVE ANYMORE
THEN I MARRIED AGAIN THINKING I HAD A PRINCE THIS TIME
HE WAS SO GOOD TO ME,BUT I FELT UGLY BECAUSE THATS
WHAT MY FIRST HUSBAND PLANTED IN MY HEAD, HE WOULD
SPIT IN MY MOUTH,THINGS WENT GREAT FOR A FEW YEARS I
NEVER KNEW WHAT MENTAL ABUSE WAS ABOUT BACK THEN,SO I
TOOK IT FOR GRANTED I WAS STUPID,MY HUSBAND NOW,WAS
EVEN WORST THEN THE FIRST,HIS WORDS WOULD GO DEEP INTO
MY HEART,AND I BURIED IT INDIDE ME ,I SOON NEEDED
NERVE
MEDS TO GET ME THROUGH EACH DAY,I WAS WORKING VERY
HARD AT THE TIME,I NEEDED EXTRA PILLS TO GET ME
THROUHGH,THE DAYS AND NIGHTS,EVERTY THING I DID WAS
STUPID OR WRONG,IN HIS EYES AND HE WOULD YELLED AT ME
LIKE A CHILD,TO GET AWAY FROM HIS HARD VOICE I WOULD
POP MORE PILLS,ROLAND WAS A VERY HARD MAN WHO HAD NO
TIME FOR GOD,HE WOULD CUSS HIM OUT,I WAS NOT SAVED BUT
IT FRIGHTED ME,IN 1991 I COULD NOT TAKE ANMORE,I HAD A
SEVERE NERVOUS BREAKDOWN,IN HOSPITAL I BANNED ALL
VISITERS,EVEN MY HUSBAND,I HATED HIM SO MUCH,I LEFT
ROLAND AND KEPT WORKING UNDER STRESS I HAD TO,TO PAY
MY RENT,IT WAS 400.00 A MONTH I HAD 50 LEFT OVER TO
EAT,
I TELL YOU THE TRURTH,I DONT KNOW HOW I EVER WORKED
BUT I DID AND I WORKED SO HARD I LOST 70 LBS.FINIALY
MY HUSBAND GAVE HIS HEART TO THE LORD,SO I CAME BACK
TO HIM,NOW YOU THINK I WOULD HAVE BEEN HAPPY,BUT NO TO
ME IT WAS A LITTLE TO LATE,JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND DO
YOUR OWN THING ,OH HOW BITTER I GOT TOWARD THE CHURCH
AND SO CALLED CHRISTIANS,THE BITTER GREW AROUND MY
HEART SO THICK IT WAS LIKE A CONCRETE WALL THAT A
CRANE WOULD NOT GET THROUGH,I LIVED IN THIS HOUSE 5
YEARS IN PRETENSE,DID WHAT I HAD TO DO BUT STORED THE
ANGER INSIDE,AFTER FIVE YEARS MY FRIEND SAID TO ME YOU
SHOULD COME UP TO CHURCH WITH ME TONIGHT,I SAID YOU
ARE SICK GET LOST,IN THE MEANTIME GOD WAS GIVING ME
POEMS BUT THEY WERE VERY BITTER POEMS,MY FEELINGS JUST
POURED OUT ON PAPER,LIKE THE PEN HAD A MIND OF ITS
OWN,
WELL I SAID WHY NOT GO UP THERE WATCH THEM ALL GO
SILLY
AND I SAID TO MY FRIEND DONT YOU EVEN TRY TO GET ME UP
TO THAT ALTER,SO SHE STAYES SILENT,BUT YOU KNOW GOD
KNOWS THE HEART ALTHOUGH I WAS VERY COLD HE NEVER LEFT
ME,THEY SANG JUST AS I AM WITHOUT ONE PLEA,TWAS THAT
THY BLOOD WAS SHED FOR ME,BUT I WAS AS COLD AS SNOW
I WOULD NOT EVEN SHED A TEAR,BUT THE PREACHER WOULD
NOT GIVE UP HE ASK,FOR THE SONG TO BE PLAYED JUST BY
MUSIC,AND ON THE THIRD VERSE I BOWED MY HEAD AND SAIS
LORD IF YOU WANT ME UP THERE AR THAT ALTER TONIGHT I
NEED HELP,WITH THAT EVERYTHING BROKE I WAS UP AT THE
ALTER CRYING MY HEART OUT,ALL THE HATE AND BITTERNESS
FELL AT THE FEET OF JESUS,AND I HAVE BEEN SERVING HIM
EVER SINCE,NOW I HAVE MY SICKNESS TO DEAL WITH EACH
DAY,BUT YOU KNOW WHAT MY FRIENDS I HAVE A NEW HOME IN
HEAVEN,WITH JESUS ,STILL WITH MY HUSBAND,NO BED OF
ROSES,BUT EVERYTHING IS FINE,NOW AFTER READING THIS
CAN YOU SAY THERE IS NO GOD,PRAISE HIS HOLY NAME,MY
NAME IS WRITTEN IN HEAVEN,AMENNNNN GOD BLESS YOU
THERES NOTHING TO BIG FOR MY GOD TO DO,
HERE TODAY AND STILL THINK THERES IS NO GOD,AND HE IS
NOT REAL,THEN I FEEL SORRY FOR YOU BECAUSE HE BOUGHT
ME FROM THE DARKEST PIT YOU CAN EVER FALL INTO,
NO ONE BUT JESUS SAVED MY SOUL,AND SAVED ME AT A
TIME WHEN MY LIFE WAS EVERY EMPTY,AND MY MARRIAGE WAS
EVEN LESS.
MY FIRST HUSBAND WAS A DRUNKERD,AND STILL IS TODAY
I NEVER KNEW THE MEANING OF A SMILE,I WAS ALWAYS IN
TEARS,EVERY CENT MY HUSBAND WOULD MAKE HE WOULD DRINK
IT ALL,I NEVER HAD ANY FOOD FOR MY 2 BOYS ECCEPT FOR
MY DAD,I LIVED LIKE THAT TIL I COULD NOT LIVE ANYMORE
THEN I MARRIED AGAIN THINKING I HAD A PRINCE THIS TIME
HE WAS SO GOOD TO ME,BUT I FELT UGLY BECAUSE THATS
WHAT MY FIRST HUSBAND PLANTED IN MY HEAD, HE WOULD
SPIT IN MY MOUTH,THINGS WENT GREAT FOR A FEW YEARS I
NEVER KNEW WHAT MENTAL ABUSE WAS ABOUT BACK THEN,SO I
TOOK IT FOR GRANTED I WAS STUPID,MY HUSBAND NOW,WAS
EVEN WORST THEN THE FIRST,HIS WORDS WOULD GO DEEP INTO
MY HEART,AND I BURIED IT INDIDE ME ,I SOON NEEDED
NERVE
MEDS TO GET ME THROUGH EACH DAY,I WAS WORKING VERY
HARD AT THE TIME,I NEEDED EXTRA PILLS TO GET ME
THROUHGH,THE DAYS AND NIGHTS,EVERTY THING I DID WAS
STUPID OR WRONG,IN HIS EYES AND HE WOULD YELLED AT ME
LIKE A CHILD,TO GET AWAY FROM HIS HARD VOICE I WOULD
POP MORE PILLS,ROLAND WAS A VERY HARD MAN WHO HAD NO
TIME FOR GOD,HE WOULD CUSS HIM OUT,I WAS NOT SAVED BUT
IT FRIGHTED ME,IN 1991 I COULD NOT TAKE ANMORE,I HAD A
SEVERE NERVOUS BREAKDOWN,IN HOSPITAL I BANNED ALL
VISITERS,EVEN MY HUSBAND,I HATED HIM SO MUCH,I LEFT
ROLAND AND KEPT WORKING UNDER STRESS I HAD TO,TO PAY
MY RENT,IT WAS 400.00 A MONTH I HAD 50 LEFT OVER TO
EAT,
I TELL YOU THE TRURTH,I DONT KNOW HOW I EVER WORKED
BUT I DID AND I WORKED SO HARD I LOST 70 LBS.FINIALY
MY HUSBAND GAVE HIS HEART TO THE LORD,SO I CAME BACK
TO HIM,NOW YOU THINK I WOULD HAVE BEEN HAPPY,BUT NO TO
ME IT WAS A LITTLE TO LATE,JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND DO
YOUR OWN THING ,OH HOW BITTER I GOT TOWARD THE CHURCH
AND SO CALLED CHRISTIANS,THE BITTER GREW AROUND MY
HEART SO THICK IT WAS LIKE A CONCRETE WALL THAT A
CRANE WOULD NOT GET THROUGH,I LIVED IN THIS HOUSE 5
YEARS IN PRETENSE,DID WHAT I HAD TO DO BUT STORED THE
ANGER INSIDE,AFTER FIVE YEARS MY FRIEND SAID TO ME YOU
SHOULD COME UP TO CHURCH WITH ME TONIGHT,I SAID YOU
ARE SICK GET LOST,IN THE MEANTIME GOD WAS GIVING ME
POEMS BUT THEY WERE VERY BITTER POEMS,MY FEELINGS JUST
POURED OUT ON PAPER,LIKE THE PEN HAD A MIND OF ITS
OWN,
WELL I SAID WHY NOT GO UP THERE WATCH THEM ALL GO
SILLY
AND I SAID TO MY FRIEND DONT YOU EVEN TRY TO GET ME UP
TO THAT ALTER,SO SHE STAYES SILENT,BUT YOU KNOW GOD
KNOWS THE HEART ALTHOUGH I WAS VERY COLD HE NEVER LEFT
ME,THEY SANG JUST AS I AM WITHOUT ONE PLEA,TWAS THAT
THY BLOOD WAS SHED FOR ME,BUT I WAS AS COLD AS SNOW
I WOULD NOT EVEN SHED A TEAR,BUT THE PREACHER WOULD
NOT GIVE UP HE ASK,FOR THE SONG TO BE PLAYED JUST BY
MUSIC,AND ON THE THIRD VERSE I BOWED MY HEAD AND SAIS
LORD IF YOU WANT ME UP THERE AR THAT ALTER TONIGHT I
NEED HELP,WITH THAT EVERYTHING BROKE I WAS UP AT THE
ALTER CRYING MY HEART OUT,ALL THE HATE AND BITTERNESS
FELL AT THE FEET OF JESUS,AND I HAVE BEEN SERVING HIM
EVER SINCE,NOW I HAVE MY SICKNESS TO DEAL WITH EACH
DAY,BUT YOU KNOW WHAT MY FRIENDS I HAVE A NEW HOME IN
HEAVEN,WITH JESUS ,STILL WITH MY HUSBAND,NO BED OF
ROSES,BUT EVERYTHING IS FINE,NOW AFTER READING THIS
CAN YOU SAY THERE IS NO GOD,PRAISE HIS HOLY NAME,MY
NAME IS WRITTEN IN HEAVEN,AMENNNNN GOD BLESS YOU
THERES NOTHING TO BIG FOR MY GOD TO DO,
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