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How much will you miss me?How much will you miss me?" I asked. "I'll miss you this much," you replied, Holding out your fingers, implying very little. I smiled faintly, and gave you a big hug, Acting like I was okay with how little You care about me, or how little you'd miss me. You changed your clothes and walked out, And at that moment I felt my heart hurting. It's funny that only a year ago, I met you by pure coincidence, And shortly after that day, I developed crush on you. Now,a year later, that innocent crush Has turned into a burning desire, One that I have absolutely no control of. I find my day incomplete without the thought of you, And I find myself unhappy without you. Every day, I am scared whether or not I will be able to see you, Because I don't want to appear clingy, Or may be annoying, or let my feelings show. But most of all, it's because I don't want to Like you even more than I already do. I hate the fact that sometimes I'd wear my hair A certain way just to get that natural look you like. I hate how sometimes I'd wear clothes that I'm not into Just to hear you say, "That outfit is a perfect 10." I hate how I let myself become so crazily jealous When you pay more attention to another girl. I hate how I am doing all the things I said I would never do for any man Just so that I could get your attention. But in the end, I think it's all worth it. I'd do those things over and over if I could Hear you tell me how beautiful I am, That I have made you feel more relaxed, And that you think I give the best hugs. Maybe to you, our times together mean nothing, But to me, the times we share mean everything. I especially cherish the moments that we're alone, Sitting there silently together while I watch you work. Rarely would a person be satisfied in doing nothing, And the fact that I am able to be so content that way, It has to mean something. It does mean something. Sometimes, I hate myself for liking you so much, For wanting you so badly, for being so infatuated with you. What I hate even more above everything else Is that you didn't ask for any of this. I'm just stupid enough to fall into such a deep hole, And now the hole has gotten so deep, I can't get out. I wish you were aware of all these emotions that I have. I wish you would return half of the feelings I have for you. I wish you knew how devoted I am to you, How I compare every single man to you, How deeply I have fallen for you, And how much I am going to miss you. So after reading this, I want to know... How much will you miss me? Lubaina Poetry Ad-Free Upgrades Vote for this poem
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