Poems From The Heart

I'm going to run away
I'm going to take a voyage
I'll leave this world behind me
And put every emotion in storage.
I've been used for so long
So I expect nothing in return
When I think I'm going to make it
I start to feel the burn.

No one understands me
They never even try
And when some one says they do
I know it's just a lie
I'm going to put away my heart
Because it's better if it's out of sight
People continually break it
Yet they think that I'm alright.

But it's okay because I like it that way
I like that no one has a notion
Inside I'm slowly going crazy
But I will show no emotion.
I won't let any one see me cry
I'll stand out in the rain
The drops will blend in with my tears
And no one will ever see my pain

Even though I am in love
And my feelings for him are lyrical
He still can't see the inside of me.
I'm just waiting on a miracle.
Rumor has it that I'll be okay
That this is just a phase
Rumor has it that the rain will cease
And I'll soon see "Better Dayz"…

But I only hear them in my music
When I'm listening to Tupac
I can jam Z-Ro all day long
Because like him, my pain is non-stop
Drugs never take the pain
Because when my high is done
The world continues to spin once more
Once again, I start to run.

I'm running so fast I'm out of breath
Yet, I'm still in the same place
I'm rapidly going nowhere fast
I've got to pick up my pace
This life has put a hole in me
It is as big as a crater
But I guess the only thing I can do
Is smile now, but eventually cry later.

I'm all alone in a crowded room
There is no space on my bed
Even though I'm in solitude,
The multitude is in my head.
The only way I can get away
Is to use all the ink from this pen
And even though Josh probably wants to help
I still refuse to let him in.

Because if I show him my inside
He'll see that I have such impurity
Although he might say everything is okay
I don't want a false sense of security
I need to be held at this very moment
Because I feel my life slipping away
Everything is going down the drain
How can I make it through another day?

I know that I have upset Jay
So now it's time for tough love
But even though I know I'm in the wrong
I'm still in desperate need of a hug
I guess I will just go to sleep
Inside my dreams I'll explore
Of a place so much better than here
Of happiness, peace and much more.