As I drop my head
it falls to my pillow
and I lie down on my bed.
Sadness creeps in,
as I think about her.
Was it the right decision
to do as I did,
deciding without caution
I fear what lies ahead.
Am I ready for this,
Being together forever
and having our first kiss.
It seems now, maybe never.
My emotions locked
where no one can see,
my eyes now burn
Tears come to me.
I said I wouldn't cry
but no one can see
and tears do not lie.
It's only me
with tears at bedtime.